Goodbye, De. :)

So that was the last time I saw you, De.
Only one week ago, and now you're really gone.

Really want to be with you in your last time,
giving you a massage like you always ask me to,
put an oxygen mask in your face so you can breath easily,
or even just to hold your hand accompany you while you are sleeping.

I remember what I ask you before when i say my farewell before i went here,
'Jangan sakit-sakit ya De selama aku pergi, ok?'
And now all the pain is gone, forever.
You don't have to feel your vertigo or breathless again.
God took away all of that.
So you can rest, and sleep soundly, like you always want in this past months.

All i want to do is just to see your face again for the very last time, De.
But I can't.
France is just too far.

You know I love you, right, De?
You are my best grandpa and the best teacher I ever had.
You are the one who taught me how to love the earth, and geology, which you live in it, and it is just amazing to have such a big name in my last name,
You always make us proud, even until you died, that now we see so many people are pray for you.

You are loved by many people, De,
You already did a great job in your life.
Now it's time to go back and see your beautiful wife again, in heaven.

Allahummaghfirlahu warhamhu wa'afihi wa'fu'anhu.
Semoga Allah SWT mengampuni dosa dan menerima semua amal ibadahmu, De.

14 Maret 2013.
Ariesty Asikin.

i dreamed a dream

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they turn your hope apart
As they turn your dreams to shame

And still I dream he'd come to me
That we would live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from the hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed

thursday afternoon, we found love

It's like you're screaming, and no one can hear
You almost feel ashamed
That someone could be that important
That without them, you feel like nothing
No one will ever understand how much it hurts
You feel hopeless, like nothing can save you
And when it's over, and it's gone
You almost wish that you could have all that bad stuff back
So that you could have the good,