even tough my heart says so but my body won't listen

happy birthday

it's 7th october.
happy birthday, my dear
happy birthday..

i hope you are ok in your place now
but you know, i hate it when i can't celebrate your birthday together with you here
can you go home?
but even if you are home, can you not busy with your friend?
you were with them for always, and can i ask you for a day to be mine, again?
tell me if you can
please, tell me if you can

evening in office

it's to tired to angry
it's to tired to debates
i just want to sleep
i just want my peace

waiting

if you can open your facebook? why can't you call me, even it in the middle of the night?
can you feel that i'm waiting you day by day, and feels so desperate and hopeless when i can't see your message in my phone?

hello again!

hai! it's september already!
hoho..and this september will gonna end soon, i think,,

hoo God, it's too complicated what i feel nowadays,
may be sad, may be frustated, may be obsessed, don't know.. x(
with so many deadline, and my boyfriend is so far far away
in my adaptation time, it's so hard to not have you now beside me
but i have to be strong
this isn't a big problem anyway, isn't it?
this is for the lonely
this is for the lonely

sometimes i think
i wished on the wrong stars
cause i always seem so far
from the one that i dream of
it's hard to wait for love

but i make it on my own
cause i'm learning to be strong
but it never easy standing all alone

this is for the lonely
this is for the lonely
we are live underneath the same blue sky
this is for the lonely ones tonight
i'll help you find a way, to hold on

at night i cry
but no one's by my side
my tears they go unheard
so i look for the word
to ease my heart

for now i'll sing this prayer
that somehow somebody somewhere
i will turn around and find love standing there

this is for the lonely
this is for the lonely
we are live underneath the same blue sky
this is for the lonely ones tonight
i'll help you find a way, to hold on

-sweetbox, for the lonely

last night dream (15.7)

last night, i dream of you, of us.
i saw that we are married, held a huge party and i wear a long kebaya.
you are so handsome, and i am beautiful.
i saw we are so happy, full of laugh with our friends who came to our party.
and then we play together, walking around, and go have fun with the others too,
hmm
unfortunately,
it's still a dream, at least for now.
when it will become a reality?
soon, i hope :)
i'll wait it.

ice cream cone McD

who don't want a yummy, sweet, cheap and full of milk ice cream like this?

since i was a child, my mother often buy me this ice cream and i like the taste a lot! (Basically, i love ice cream, whatever kind of it xD )

but there's one interesting story that happened last night when i buy a big size ice cream cone.
the new waiter (i know she is new because of her uniform and her name tag that labeled 'trainee') serve me and started to make a cone of ice cream for me. but then, she realize that she got the wrong size, she make a normal size while i order a big one.
and in front of my eye, she threw that ice cream (yep, the new and ready to eat one but the size is wrong) into the garbage! oh my god!!

i mean, why she has to throw away that ice cream? it's ok for me to have that ice cream altough it is smaller rather than i have to watch it became redundant. oh my god.. i still just can't believe!

maybe it is because of the standard operation procedure that run in the restaurant, hmm,,but if i remember that there are a lot of child that want that ice cream but they can't have it because they don't have any money, i feel so sad.

i hope i don't watch the same thing twice, haha,,

it's rainy..it's rainy..

almost every afternoon, the rain comes to me.
with a dark cloud and a freezing wind. and force me to put some blanket in my shoulder.
but in this afternoon, a little bit different.
there's still a dark cloud and a freezing wind, but the sun keep shining.
give me some hope that the rain will go as fast as possible.
and i can go out and enjoy the sunset outside my door.
just like my problem. our problem.
there must be a solution behind that.

like in Bahasa said that,

"Habis gelap terbitlah terang"

-by R.A Kartini.

j.cool

wow. can you look at the freshness that j.cool try to attractive you? hihi.. i just can't stand to eat the couple-size of j.cool with my favorite topping kiwi, honeystars cereal, strawberry, and sometimes almond or chocoball. hmm..delicious when your tongue feel the melt of sour from ice cream yoghurt and sweet from the honeystars or almond.

YUMMY!

the diet

the very last one book that i got from my mas and i've just finished this book this morning.

if you love food, you will definitely love this book. why? because in every page in this book it mention a name of food. from the original toast to Sole Florentine I (and i don't even know what kind of food is that, haha), but the writer successfully makes me drooling ^.^

the story tells about Cate, a genius woman in making delicious food and have a success culinary school named Cate's Cookery have turn her life rapidly in the last one year because of food. Cate who has a bad memory of her mom's death because of too much eat obsessed to be slim because she and her sister Sam don't want to be like their mom.

the problem is started when she found out that she got pregnant and at the same day a publishing expressed their interest to make a book from her recipe. when she got home, another surprised she get from her husband Charles that the bank says he is bankrupt. Starting at that day, Charles drown himself to his job and Cate drown herself to food. During her pregnancy, she put on weight until 27 kilograms and her obesity force her to premature birth. from the twin, the girl only survivor but the doctor couldn't save the boy.

Charles take the daughter and go away from Cate's life. to get them back, she tries a lot of diet until one night when her weight reach 93 kilograms and she lost everything, include Sam and her book publishing, she feels desperate and want to end her life with eat just like her mom. but Josh, her old friend, came to rescue her by bring her an article about non-carb diet.

Cate try this diet and successfully return her weight but Charles doesn't want to go back to her. (well, in this point i feel that Charles is a coward, because he only love to Cate's body shape and running away from her when she needs -.-" ) but there always Josh who love her in every weight which has been passed. And they live happily together with Cate's daughter whose is condoned by Charles.

hmm..
after I read this book, i want to cook the delicious food that described in here but unfortunately, the writer didn't gave the recipe here..
I hope i will find a man like Josh who can love his girl not only from her body, just like when Josh love Cate even if Cate is super fat.

zodiac says:

it's only just for fun :)
maybe not all the people believe to what zodiacs says, but for truth, it's fun to know how the stars tell you something about your habit, and you're really surprise because what zodiac says is right!
yes, I am an aries girl. and even in my first name my mother put the aries word in it. :D

and know, I want to know what zodiac says about me and my mate.
lets see,

#Libra - #Aries: The Aries will never openly admit that they respect and admire the Libra for their ability to control their emotions. A request from an Aries can often come across as very demanding. The goal of an argument for an Aries is to win or prove that they are right. Seeing how the Libras logic tends to make them right most of the time the Aries confidence is often crushes by the Libra. A Libra can easily destroy the ego of an Aries. Between the two, the Libra is typically the cool, calm and collected person. When the Aries aggressive nature becomes intolerable, it can bring out a stormy side of the Libra that many never witness. The object of most quarrels to Aries is usually to win and prove they’re right (even when they’re wrong) to satisfy their considerable ego. A Libra will do what is ever necessary to regain balance in their life. Conversely, the Libra will respond to the Aries friend, relative or mate by finding his indecision gradually turning into a firmer purpose, inspired by the Aries ambition into higher achievement.

#Aries- #Libra: An association between Aries and Libra can be beneficial for the both of them. The Aries can learn how to bring balance and structure to their life, while the Libra can gain some excitement in their life. A Libra can provide the Aries with encouragement and the friendly words they need for their emotional well being as long as the Aries agrees to play fair.

you can find your zodiac says yourself in the link above.
have a nice try! :)
source: http://zodiacfacts.blogspot.com/

big heart

everyone has made mistake, right?
but if we know the mistake, and then we admit it, and finally we apologize at it, can't it be acceptable?
for me, maybe the most important thing from the mistake is when we learn how to accept other people critics, and move to be better based on that critics, because i believe when someone throw a critics on you, it means that he/she care for you :)

be brave
have a big heart
because everybody made a mistake, not only you :)

for the first time!

hey!
i've just created this blog, and i don't even know what i wanna write and share in here.
well, maybe i just wanna say,
WELCOME!
hehe