i dreamed a dream

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they turn your hope apart
As they turn your dreams to shame

And still I dream he'd come to me
That we would live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather

I had a dream my life would be
So different from the hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed

thursday afternoon, we found love

It's like you're screaming, and no one can hear
You almost feel ashamed
That someone could be that important
That without them, you feel like nothing
No one will ever understand how much it hurts
You feel hopeless, like nothing can save you
And when it's over, and it's gone
You almost wish that you could have all that bad stuff back
So that you could have the good,

Untuk seorang teman

Ya Tuhanku, yang Maha membolak-balikkan hati
Jika memang ini semua sudah terlambat
Jika kenangan itu tak akan pernah bisa menjadi masa depan
Dan penyesalan itu akan selalu datang, menyeruak dalam kehingan malam maupun hingar bingar taman ria
Dimana tak bisa lari, sejauh apapun pergi
Karena ia selalu ada, karena hati selalu terbuka untuknya
Tak pernah tertutup walaupun dengan rasionalitas yang membumbung membawa asa pergi
Hilang, Pergi, dan Tak Kembali
Kesalahpahaman yang menyayat hati, sungguh, kesalahpahaman yang menghancurkan segalanya
Jika memang sudah tak ada yang bisa dilakukan
Bantulah untuk menata perasaan ini, Tuhan
Untuk tetap tegar, bergerak, dan terus hidup.


Dari cerita seorang teman,
Tuhan memang tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita semua
Dan Tuhan pasti baik dengan kita semua.